I hate where I live and still taking a lifetime to have it done moving from here... It's so depressed I cant even pay my bills correctly, nobody cares and leaves like I was feared the very first day.
What do? I think it's too late, I mean if I cant even take care of myself who will ever take care of my cats?? It is a death sin, I can feel it, I think I should go to a healer, a white witch etc. I have nothing to lose, you can tell my writing is slow and thats why I need someone, something, WHY the HELL isn't SOMEBODY listening, just leaving but says there not... Its making me more of a loner and just gives panic-attacks whenever I go outside, I feel paranoid, like someone is going to rape me, or robe me. That is that kind of feeling... scared:sad:
Just stay with me like I would never leave you for someone bad, evil.
I will do my best, but now it seems nothing in the world, history could ever bring me to life again, Im stuck in here, there's no coming back whenever youll decided, and I had my life, destroyed. I just want to leave in piece with my self, thats hard like it is... economic, but money isnt what I want then its there's no life for me out there. I cant even feel lust, or love for someone anymore, cause they're always ends up to be assholes, fuck it!
Fuck life, here we go...
What do? I think it's too late, I mean if I cant even take care of myself who will ever take care of my cats?? It is a death sin, I can feel it, I think I should go to a healer, a white witch etc. I have nothing to lose, you can tell my writing is slow and thats why I need someone, something, WHY the HELL isn't SOMEBODY listening, just leaving but says there not... Its making me more of a loner and just gives panic-attacks whenever I go outside, I feel paranoid, like someone is going to rape me, or robe me. That is that kind of feeling... scared:sad:
Just stay with me like I would never leave you for someone bad, evil.
I will do my best, but now it seems nothing in the world, history could ever bring me to life again, Im stuck in here, there's no coming back whenever youll decided, and I had my life, destroyed. I just want to leave in piece with my self, thats hard like it is... economic, but money isnt what I want then its there's no life for me out there. I cant even feel lust, or love for someone anymore, cause they're always ends up to be assholes, fuck it!
Fuck life, here we go...