Being loved by people is why I live, because they don't want me to die. but I don't deserve to be loved. I don't care what anyone else says, I know myself the best. I simply do not deserve it. I wish nobody cared about me. I wish people hated me and beat me up and told me to go die. Because then I'd have someone to agree with. And then I wouldn't have to live anymore. It's just not fair. I'm not good at anything. I can't take it anymore.