I am a 28 year old male and I want to die. My first suicide attempt was 3 years ago. I tried to cut my wrists....but I didnt cut hard enough. I rebounded from that point, and when the idea of taking my own life has come up again, I have always been able to convince myself that it is not the answer. However, each time the idea comes up, suicide seems to be the right option more and more (if that makes sense at all). I feel guilty for being unhappy. People in Africa and Asia have it bad. But I still am said. I have felt my entire life that I have been alone, and I feel now...that that condition will never change. I was sexually molested, I've been raped, abused, teased, just about everything. I've tried to think about what would make me happy, and thats a normal life, or some sense of peace. But I dont think that's ever going to happen. I feel bad telling the people that I would consider my friends how sad I am because I feel like I'm just bumming them out, so I have started to keep how I feel more to myself. I feel guilty for feeling so miserable. I'm not homeless, diseased or unemployed. so many people have it worse. yes this is the way I feel. How I want do die has changed, and now that I have recently found sites that index such information, the thought has been on my mind more and more. I just want an end to all the sadness...I dont even think death will resolve that though.