I don't want to but I have to

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by twistedwhispers, Sep 26, 2010.

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  1. twistedwhispers

    twistedwhispers Member & Antiquities Friend

    I have suffered with depression & suicidal thoughts pretty much
    my entire adulthood.

    Recently things have take a drastic turn for the worse.
    I make good money at my job but I am so far in debt (credit cards)
    that I can no longer pay my monthly bills.

    Talked to a bankruptcy attorney. Since the laws changed, it a lot
    harder to qualify. My parents filed in June. Nice huh? All because of
    this bitch spawn of Satan that has taken my parents for all they
    are worth. Literally. My dad, well, he has pretty much given up on
    life. Has super high blood pressure but won't take medication for it.
    He thinks they only way out is he dies or she dies. Fuck that!

    But see I can't make my parents do anything. But who is there to help
    them out when the need it. Me. But now I am going under too.

    I can't change the past. Maybe I will get the guts someday to actually
    do something. My Mom is my best friend. She still has some "sane-ness"
    in her. She doesn't want to die. She is a two time survivor of breast
    cancer & the strongest person I know. I love her with all my heart.

    If she ever gets to that breaking point, maybe we can do a
    mother-daughter type thing...........

    Thanks for listening to my rant..............

    I have said this before, I am not looking for pity, understanding, or even
    help. I just want to be acknowledged. I want someone to just say "I know
    you are hurting......." crying now. I better go.
  2. Punk

    Punk Well-Known Member

    Times are really hard. Can you arrange lower payments with your creditors? Be upfront with them. Cut all bar one of the cards up.

    Do you have anyone you can talk to locally?
  3. Aphorism

    Aphorism Well-Known Member

    Finical situations are at their worst right now, but there is always opportunity for improvement. I hope it improves for you soon, and I see that you're hurting. I genuinely want you to hold on for as long as you can.
  4. twistedwhispers

    twistedwhispers Member & Antiquities Friend

    Thank you. :hug:I will keep trying.

    I am going to contact my creditors, see if something can be done, it can't
    hurt to ask.......I hope.
  5. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I hear your pain and your anger and i do hope that anger helps you to stay here and look after you and your mom. You are right your dad he will have to look after himself and his problems. You look after you okay thats it and i hope the creditors help you out with lower payment plan take care stay strong like your mom okay
  6. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    Hi TW. Who is the person that has caused your parents to file for bankrupcy and how has she done this? I'm sorry to hear that you and your parents are drowning in debt, but there are options other than bankrupcy. There are debt counsellours and debt relief programs that might be able to help. Please don't give up hope. :hug:
  7. twistedwhispers

    twistedwhispers Member & Antiquities Friend

    Thank you so much. I am feeling better than when I posted this.

    I appreciate all the kind words.:heart:
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