I'm 21, female, UK. I've been depressed and anxious all my life, I left school early with no friends because of my depression during my teen years. I spent the next few years at home not seeing anyone.. I got even more depressed. I don't have a friend in the world. I started University this week, I thought it was the first step to getting my life back to normal and to get better. It's been just a few days but I know already that I'm not cut out for...life. I just can't cope.. All these people are so confident and happy and loud, they've all made friends and I'm just sat there, quiet as a mouse, unable to speak. Not that they even speak to me, I might as well not be there, they've all ignored me so far. I realized that no matter how much I try to get my life back together from the hell I went through in my teenage years, I just can't, nothing works, I just get put down even further. I honestly give up now. I'll never be like "them", the normal people, with their normal lives... My past years with depression and anxiety will always fuck things up for me. Right now this is where I'm at: I either: A) Go through 3 years in University and suffer a mental breakdown Or B) Quit university, isolate myself all over again and ruin my life for good. I'm seriously getting suicidal thoughts. I don't see the point in trying anymore, I'm not living. I'm existing, i wander aimlessly from class to class, each time just wanting to break down.