i reaaally don't want to die, i have some dreams and even plans, i would love to work in a fashion industry and travel a lot, but i feel like i MUST die. my own mother hates me and abuses me mentally, i don't feel any type of bond with her or my sibling, we just live in the same house. i cry almost everyday beacuse of this woman but noone really cares, even my school. when i told them that I'm struggling they said of course we will get someone for you and when i reminded them 3 pr 4 times they said the same thing, now the school year is over so is my "help" from them. i can't afford a therapist so I'm just stuck here questioning if i really deserve to live? I'm just so worthless, i don't have any friends and my family is full of people like my mother, so i can't rely on them, i don't have any talents and i im rather clumsy so i can't do anything right, im shaking 24/7 so its hard to even walk properly, like I'm always so stressed, even when i i think im in a good mood there's a part of me that is stressed. I'm just a teenager but i feel like I'm a waste of space and i don't deserve to live that long. I'm literally so useless, i don't have anything to wake up to, noone needs me and i know i won't be successful in the future. even when i try to be good at something it just doesn't work out and i hate myself for even thinking about it. i don't really know what to say, i feel like i need to vanish, i don't bring anything to life and everyone see me as a burden and it hurts me sometimes even physically, i just can't handle this constant pain and stress.
I'm so sorry if my grammar is bad, english is not my native language!! i hope it's still understable!
I'm so sorry if my grammar is bad, english is not my native language!! i hope it's still understable!