I'm so sick of suffering right now. I have moments where I think I'm okay and can get through this but then reality hits and I realize it's all just delaying the inevitable. I'm so sick of thinking of ways to make my problems go away. I'm sick of worrying, of never being able to shut my brain off, of waking up wondering how I can think up a way to get out of this hell while trying to stay positive. I don't want to do this anymore! I don't want to die but i feel like it is the only option.