I dunno what to write here, Im so lost. Part of me just wants to fly of that bridge because thats the only way I think I can truly be set free, that it can't happen in this life. My heads a mess, mostly from being emotionally bashed around by girls, I know the problems might run deeper than that but that is what hurts the most. It could be from stuff like not knowing where Im going or even who I am but the real pain I feel is from wanting to be with someone who cares about me as much as I care about them. I just get that weightless feelin you know, like someone is tryin to pull ur heart out. Its pathetic I know, sometimes I wish I was asexual! Im not the kind of guy that falls for a girl easily, but when I do I fall hard. A hopeless romantic in the true sense. I know that from the point of view of a proffesional/shrink/whatever this is probably the least of my problems as I'm bipolar, but really screw Meds and all that other shit, Im a person not a set of chemicals and this is what is hurting for me now. Sorry guys.