no one does. I know that... it's hard. If it were easy; then no one would be depressed and everyone would be great and happy all the time. -____- I just feel so shitty. My body hates me. my sickness is getting worse and a doctor told me today that there's nothing that can be done, I just have to sit this 'spell' out. I'm fucking dizzy and can't concentrate and can't eat or drink; my stomach is in knots, I keep vomiting up bile and I've got terrible migraines... and I'm super emotional. I just keep fucking crying. Watched Toy Story 3 and fucking cried through most of it. >< I am such a BABY! I HATE THIS!! I just keep thinking about my ex. About how I was so happy for 8 years of my life; before and after that time-- I was fucking miserable. I don't remember ever getting this sick before. It was like magic! Whenever he was around I felt happy and semi-healthy. I could run around and wrestle and have fun... now I can't even lift my own weight and I bruise just from rubbing up against someone else. what a fucking crock of shit. He had the right idea to leave when he did. I'm sure no one would want to have to look after a sick/annoying person like me for the rest of my life. Every time I feel like this and I try to do myself in-- I fail. There's no sense in trying to do it that way anymore... because obviously; my sick and weak body is immune to that and only that. -___- is that ironic? I think it is.