I know all these threads are starting to sound the same but I need some help from you guys. I don't want to live anymore but I'm too afraid of death. Fear of death is the reason for my depression. I will not live to see the day that people I love die. Just the thought of my grandmother, mother, sister, brother, or anyone close to me passing paralyzes me. At just the thought I start crying instantly, hence the tears running down my cheeks right now. I have only lost one person who was really close to me in my life and I still mourn for them but I was pretty young at that time. I just don't know what to do. I'm only 16 but the thought of losing anyone close to me is the worst. If someone who I love dies before me, I will be the next person gone. I guarantee it. Please don't go reporting me or whatever. I'll live tonight, tomorrow, next week, next year. But one day, one of these people will leave me. I am not religious at all so the thought of them leaving is terrifying for me because I have no clue what's next. I hope there is a heaven but I don't believe there is. I refuse to believe we just rot, though.