First of all I am supposed to go and see the psychiatrist but I go to the wrong place. Then the counsellor annoys me because she thinks I want to be depressed. I am giving up on her. She's only saying that because she knows she can't help me. I am always going to be depressed. I hate life and she knows it. Suicide is the only way out... The other main thing that upsets me more then anything is the fact is I have black hair and I don't want it black anymore. I want it a dark blood red. But NO!!! Life sucks again. I ask the hair dressers but all they say is that my hair is too dark. Everything is going wrong and I don't want to live anymore. I am considering ending everything because I cannot take anymore. There is no hope anymore.