I'm going back to school for my registration. I don't really want to go there again. Last year, I started with a positive attitude and self-esteem but then it started going down throughout the year. Also, my classmates are mostly a negative bunch and I'm distrusting to the school staff, believing that they think grades are the most important thing in the world. Lately, talk of school makes me even more uncomfortable than ever! I'm tempted to say it triggers me, but I think that's just a huge exaggeration. I told my dad I wanted to be homeschooled, but he turned down the idea. He said "you're just going to be even more shyer!" My dreams felt crushed, I felt I finally had the chance to escape the place that made me feel horrible but I didn't. I wanted to try and convince my dad again, but I'm always too scared. Now, I feel like maybe I took too long. Now I'm sitting here anxiously at bedtime, thinking to myself "What should I do?!" I feel like I'd rather die than go back.. I'm feeling really anxious. I'm starting to feel like "If I can't turn my life around, I'd rather not live it. I don't want to be its puppet anymore." I'm sorry, maybe I'm making a big deal out of it, but I still want to vent and maybe get some advice on what I should do..