You ain't the only one.
There've been recent incidents where I pray that a terminal illness would befall me. Yet, the thought of ALS, AIDS, or some other fucked up disease is frightening.
What we really wish is a quick death. Sadly, ALS, cancer, or AIDS won't provide that and would likely change our view on life and make us appreciate the life we are currently living, no matter how fucking shitty it is.
That's why I've been wishing that I could live in an impoverished country and starve. It sure beats my current situation.