Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Cortez, Feb 25, 2011.
I hate myself so much.
I want to kill the pain inside.
^^ thats the one i want to kill the pain inside
I prefer it over sobriety
do you guys realize that alcohol is a substance that will actually make your depression worse?
I like who I am when I'm drunk.
Yep IV, it is.
* I like it
* It helps me sleep
* It makes it easy to distract myself from the bitter pain, heartbreak and hollowness that plagues every minute of my life.
It's hit and miss. I find most often that it makes it easier to get lost in passive, meaningless, mindless shit and helps me forget how cripplingly depressed I am. It's common knowledge that alcohol is a depressant, and your point honestly borders on condescension (though I'm sure it was unintentional), but there's a reason so many people have turned to it in times of need.
Sometimes, it DOES make things horribly worse, but to be truthful, for me, it's a risk I'm willing to take, because more often than not it simply helps me forget and have a little fun without that nagging voice going off in the back of my head reminding me of why everyday feels like a fucking funeral. Pathetic? Well, that's in the eye of the beholder... I'm just doing what I can to survive.
ive never used drugs/drink as a crutch im my life before but over the past 3/4 weeks ive drank almost everyday a week last friday i stopped doing all the drugs and hid my mcat, coke, mdma and ket somewhere i knew i couldnt get the bags back , but then im just really on the drink now it seems to help stop the pain/thoughts atm i think even if its just for one night i cant stand my own thoughts atm....
...it helps me forget
said it better thabn i ever could
I like to drink because it makes me feel good and numb, it kills the pain and stops me from thinking about all of it.
I like to drink because it helps me forget about how much a total failure I am, and its the only time I can put up a false sense of security and delude myself from the actual truth.
because of the numbness
which is good and bad
but its been a while, yeah for me!
it stops the voices at best or slows them down so that i can ignore them..i sure as hell dont find it a depressing to stop the mind chatter, its a relief, works better than any meds for me :yay: