I drink

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by Joshuwah, Feb 7, 2009.

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  1. Joshuwah

    Joshuwah Well-Known Member

    Because I don't think about my problems, my issues or whats hurting me, I think of good times, when I do thionk of something bad i can't sustain a thought for long anyway i lose concentration so i forget and go back to happy things. I drink because I need to, want to and have to forget what happened. I have my cider and my jane, and because of her i have a future.
     
  2. mixedemotions

    mixedemotions Forum Buddy

    :cry:

    I love you so much
     
  3. SadPandaBear

    SadPandaBear Well-Known Member

    I drink too, sometimes I'm afraid I cant stop.
     
  4. Seerbrum

    Seerbrum Well-Known Member

    Alcohol...

    Hmmm...

    Yeah I drink. At home, I've got a small stock pile in empty vodka bottles. I drink vodka because the Wild Turkey started making me super sick before I can finish the bottle. Clear Spirits are easier on the body, due to the lack of agiing the barrel.

    I wish moon shine was legal, White lighting is the best some nights.

    Right now, because I'm with my dad, I'm drinking good old Pabst Blue Ribbon, I feel the beer tends to be a little more socially acceptable. But I can tell when I reach about my 9th one, my dad is giving me this look like "Why?".

    Well too bad, I drink, a lot. My tolerance as reach olmpyic levels at this point. Yesterday I drank a whole 12 back, so 12 times 12, carrying whatever. Thats 144fl ounces of beer, didn't even phase me, I had to finally lay down and force myself to sleep so I didn't crack open the next 12 pack. Right now I'm at... 8 beers, so 12 fluid ounces times 8. MATH! Equals 96fl oz of Good ole union made PBR. And I just opened the Ninth.

    I've been drinking since I was 17, I was getting wasted every night off stolen wine by the time I was 18 1/2. So considering I'll be 22 in april... Man thats a long time at my age to be drinking EVERY NIGHT. Hasn't always been this fun, Haven't always been able to hold this much, but now I can start with Vodka & OJ in the afternoon, move to straight Liquor by 5 o'clock, finish the night with beer.

    Sad part is, I don't think as long as I function as well as I do, I'll ever quit. I'm almost good at it. I'm not even that physically unfit. I can't run very far because of all the crap I put in my lungs (cigarette smoker, and I love my bong, between the two I do amazing amount of damage). Yet even when I was holding down a job, I managed to drink while at work. Hiding bottles all over the place, and always having one in my backpack. After work? I hop on the bicycle and pedal my way to a bar... or home. To drink more. I use to work out while drinking, drinking water inbetween swigs of Bourbon, but I at lest quit that. (Dehydration is a bitch).

    How long I have a rambled on? Oh, Alcohol is a mixed emotion for me. Sometimes it makes my depression 10 fold, numbs me so bad I can't feel physical pain quiet right... then at other times. If I just drink a few beers after a really depressing morning... I'm happy again. Weird.
     
  5. Joshuwah

    Joshuwah Well-Known Member

    This should have gone elsewhere, members diary or somthing.

    Love you Jane :wub: :sweetheart:
     
  6. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    i wish i has the strength to drink that uch to numbe evrything. but i know it is the wrong thing to do :sad: i hope your not stuck in the drinking cycle too long hun, i've seen what it does to people :hug:
     
  7. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    I use to be a major alcoholic, but once I started on meds I quit cold turkey. If you are going to spend the money for meds then do them right. If you drink with them you kill the effect of them. I'll have a couple drinks everynow and then. Nothing to an extent just one or two.
     
  8. kenny

    kenny Well-Known Member

    I sometimes drink to excess, but its usually to break the 'habit' of taking diazepam every night.

    but usually I can keep it under control most of the time.
     
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