I can't shake this feeling. I've had it for awhile. This feeling of being really low. It gets worse each day. No one to talk to. I know people say i can always talk to them but it's not that easy. To feel like a burden must be one of the most depressing feelings ever. I find it very hard for me to open up. I think theres like 2 people i've ever truely opened up to. I can't talk to either of them. I can't talk to anyone. Even if i did have someone to talk to i don't think i could. I don't know whats wrong. I can't sleep. When i do i sleep for ages. I sleep all day. Just to forget. I'm scared. Scared their come back. The thoughts that scare me to death. Told one person about them and they must of thought i was mad. Maybe i am. Head feels like its going a hundred miles an hour and i can't slow it down. Sick of this. Sick of not being able to control my thoughts. Everything is pissing me off. I can't deal with it. Yesterday i just wanted to walk, walk and walk. Just never stop walking away from here. Never come back. Emptyness. Fed up with it. I want out. I miss you all so fucking much. It hurts like hell. I wanna be with you. Have the peace you have. I don't know wtf im talking about anymore. Rambling. Fuck up. Fucking piece of shit. Can't do it anymore.