yes. ive done it again. i cant control this person inside of me. they take over. and make me do crazy things. i came off my meds, thinking i didnt need them. but oh no. ive been fucking crazy all weekend, planning my suicide. i planned to get rid of everyone close to me so i can die in peace. dumped my gf today. then once i had calmed down realised what a total twat i had been to her all day and tried to make amends. yet again, im left alone. i always do this to myself. been put back on meds. im now on atarax and fluoxetine. im so fed up of this shit. its my life, but i cant fucking control it!!! i feel so insane!!