i have to start applying to college soon. i started exploring my options and my grades are becoming more and more of a barrier. i will not be able to get into a college. my girlfriend is pregnant. we only had sex once and we were safe. apparently not as safe as we thought. she's going to get an abortion, she told her parents. i will never be able to fix that hole that i have created. this is all my fault. i have successfully ruined my girlfriends and my own life. i feel like its best if i give up now. i have no hope.