I am nothing special. I don't have anything to look forward too in life. I feel as if I wasted everyone's time here. I thank you for your support but I failed you all! I have tried to get help, no one can. I tried to talk to someone on the crisis lines and followed their advice. Who am I kidding? No one will miss me. I have no true friends. I will keep up the facade as if nothing is wrong. I won't wate your time anymore by posting. I will be nothing but a memory. Thank byou to those who listened but I am not worthy of anymore of your time.