I am a 40 year old man. I have struggled all my life but managed to fool most everyone. Very few know my struggle. I was successful in academics and was the star athlete. I now have a great wife and carreer. I have always silently considered ending my life. I can no longer sustain this facade. Why? I have recently had some concerning health issues. It appears I had a brainstem stroke in early December. The results of the stroke arent obvious to others but I am in hell. I cant feel my legs or arms. The parts I can feel like they are burning. I have double vision in one eye. I am dizzy most of the time. My wife doesnt understand. I dont want to burden her or my family. I cant be the person I was pretending to be less than 2 months ago. I know everyone would be shocked if I took my own seemingly wonderful life. In my way I loved life but I cant do it anymore. I am alone in my own thoughts and scared.