I feel alone

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by ~CazzaAngel~, Sep 29, 2006.

  1. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    My mother told me that she talked to my brother and he told her that there is nothing wrong with me that "mental illness" doesn't exist. He said I just didn't want to work, which obviously he does NOT know me because anyone who's talked to me more than a couple times would know I want to be a therapist in the future.

    Which he kept going on about how he was a christian and republican and he would never forgive me if I ever told his friends that I was "mentally ill" because it doesn't exist but it's just lower class people who claim they are.

    My brother use to drink and party, but ahh his "friends" don't know that. but I am just the worthless embarresment as always......

    I would like to see him study on research that's been done on mental illnesses and what about schizophrenics? the hear aliens talking about killing them (just an example) and war veterans see and go back to the trauma..........and people just decided one morning as they wake to try and kill themselves..........RIGHT I BUY THAT!.........

    I dunno I just feel like the peice of shit that smells up the world as usaul.

    I just wanna kill myself so much right now..


  2. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    maybe I should delete this.....:dunno:
  3. longingforpeace

    longingforpeace Active Member

    It sounds like your brother is in a mental prison of his own. It sounds like he is so judgemental towards other people, like lower class people, because he feels pressure by society to be "normal". The idea of anyone close to him being like lower class people is probably threatening to him because he thinks it will reflect on him, as well. I, for one, know how hard it can be to hold a job when you are depressed, having anxiety issues, etc. Every job I've ever had was made very difficult because of these problems. Often times just sharing small talk with people could be excruciating. Sometimes I would have a good night, other nights it would be hell. Just wanted you to know that someone understands.
  4. thedeafmusician

    thedeafmusician Staff Alumni

    Hmmm... maybe you should tell him that over here (Australia) there's a lot of sports stars and ex politicians, like Jeff Kennett, that have depression. It might shake his world a bit.

    That said though, how are you doing now? I hope you're feeling a bit better. :hug:

  5. Lou

    Lou Well-Known Member

    So sorry you are feeling like this :(

    Your brother obviously doesn't understand depression, a lot of people don't.

    I'm here if you ever want to chat.

    {{{hugs}}} to you x
  6. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Well, we all know just how wrong your brother is. I hope that "mental illness" never finds its way to affect him. He would not be able to deal with it if it were his mind affected. Don't listen to him hun. You are not worthless. You are not using this as an excuse not to do things. It definitely is real. It is how we deal with things that makes the difference. Hang in there hun. I have faith in you. :hug:
  7. Mio

    Mio Well-Known Member

    I don't know what to say, but I just wanted to send many sencere hugs for you