Hey everyone,
I wasn't even going to register here, I actually barely have the energy to do simple things like that these days.
And how do I even articulate how I feel?
It's basically impossible to sum it up in a few lines or paragraphs.
And I'll probably make shocking spelling and grammar mistakes, for some reasons I do that when I feel really bad.
I suffer from depression and GAD (anxiety disorder) and have done for years, so much so that it makes doing most things basically impossible.
Because of my illness I stopped going out years ago (I'm 25 and live with my mum), I have really nothing to do except the part time job my dad is kind enough to keep me in.
I really have no friends anymore because I cut myself off from them and haven't seen them in 3 years.
This is the first forum i've tried for a while, I used to post on anxiety related forums, but I found that it'd trigger my feelings of unease.
Reading about peoples terrible misfortunes and learning that there were people who suffered from the same thing as me for much longer and still didn't feel better didn't help.
And what could I say to help?
There is no respite, or help, there's only coping day to day.
I've been suicidal for a long time, I thought about it, imagined what it'd be like just to be at peace, quite alluring when you feel so bad.
I don't like complaining about my 'problems' since apart from my self induced isolation there aren't many reasons I should feel this way, perhaps I just have a grim view of the world based on how bad it is.
I've really never wanted to die, I still don't, at all.
But I feel backed into a corner, I feel chronically ill ALL the time, apparently that's my anxiety playing up, I'm constantly tense, aching, stomach pains, chest pains, restless, headache etc.
It feels so pointless, nothing gets any better and the sky just seems so dark, like a shroud of unbelievable .
~can't think of anything else to say, for now~
:sadyes::shelbi:
I wasn't even going to register here, I actually barely have the energy to do simple things like that these days.
And how do I even articulate how I feel?
It's basically impossible to sum it up in a few lines or paragraphs.
And I'll probably make shocking spelling and grammar mistakes, for some reasons I do that when I feel really bad.
I suffer from depression and GAD (anxiety disorder) and have done for years, so much so that it makes doing most things basically impossible.
Because of my illness I stopped going out years ago (I'm 25 and live with my mum), I have really nothing to do except the part time job my dad is kind enough to keep me in.
I really have no friends anymore because I cut myself off from them and haven't seen them in 3 years.
This is the first forum i've tried for a while, I used to post on anxiety related forums, but I found that it'd trigger my feelings of unease.
Reading about peoples terrible misfortunes and learning that there were people who suffered from the same thing as me for much longer and still didn't feel better didn't help.
And what could I say to help?
There is no respite, or help, there's only coping day to day.
I've been suicidal for a long time, I thought about it, imagined what it'd be like just to be at peace, quite alluring when you feel so bad.
I don't like complaining about my 'problems' since apart from my self induced isolation there aren't many reasons I should feel this way, perhaps I just have a grim view of the world based on how bad it is.
I've really never wanted to die, I still don't, at all.
But I feel backed into a corner, I feel chronically ill ALL the time, apparently that's my anxiety playing up, I'm constantly tense, aching, stomach pains, chest pains, restless, headache etc.
It feels so pointless, nothing gets any better and the sky just seems so dark, like a shroud of unbelievable .
~can't think of anything else to say, for now~
:sadyes::shelbi: