I feel bad seriously suicidal

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Darken, Oct 17, 2006.

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  1. Darken

    Darken Well-Known Member

    What the hell is going on? I feel so bad every day and no one cares. My own mom doesnt care if I die. She's told me several times. I feel really bad. If some one handed me a gun I wouldnt hesitate to shoot myself. If there is a after life im going to kill myself there too, dont care how it is. Im going to go and jump off the hospital.

    I dont have any fun, ever. Im desperate every day, Im always wanting something to make me happy. No one cares, or pays attention to me even when I tell them I want to die. what the fuk is going on. I have no one to talk to. No one is here for me, no one who loves me.

    No one on this forum can really help me either. I just gotta die. My post get deleted. It really is hopeless. This world will never get better. This existence is so horrible, gah! I wish I could destroy this whole fuking planet. Im benevolent, because I would end all pain for every living being. Humans cant stop killing each other and being cruel to each other, so I wish I could just kill them all and problem solved. I cant stand pain period, like animals killing and hurting other animals. Thats not fun or beautifull or happy.

    Isnt it weird how we can imagine so many better worlds than this?
  2. Multiple Man

    Multiple Man Well-Known Member

    Tell us more about what your goign through in life, there has to be something your passionate about than jus dying. What is behind all of this anger you have. A good dialogue can help, cos believe me Ive been throgh sh*t too. I hope you can feel a little better, calm down and talk to us. Alot of people here that want to help.
  3. Zohmygob, I can't promise you that this world will get better, or that you'll magically feel wonderful and have all the pain disappear. What I can promise, however, is that here, if you open yourself to it, you will receive a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen to your problems, and a community that will hold you to the best of their ability when you are too overwhelmed to stand alone. I hope you'll remember that there are people here who care. I'm one of them. :hug:
  4. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    It is that damn emo fad that is going around that is fucking it up for us. People think we are "emo". It is like self-harm and suicide have been commericalized.

    I can say that there is stuff I like doing but the problem is that it only entertains me for so long before I get bored with it. I want to die, I shall be right there with you trying to kill myself in whatever afterlife there might be. And I will keep killing myself till I cease to exist.

    Just one problem, I am scared to do it for some reason. That is why I am still here, it is like I say, I am Durable not Strong.
  5. Darken

    Darken Well-Known Member

    Well besides being a loser in every way. I have no one who loves me, or who is here for me. Ive failed school. No girl friend. Im a nihilist, I think the universe is pointless. It doesnt matter how reality is , it would still be pointless. Im not normal and I dont fit in. I have no life. Why am I this way?

    Every day I feel strange, like life is so boring and nothing can make me enjoy it or be happy. Theres questions in life that I need to know and I will never get the answers. Questions humans have been asking for a long time. What is the point of living if im not happy? Im poor with no future.
  6. iQuit

    iQuit Well-Known Member

    Don't do it! I care!
  7. go to a library and browse the Religion section, then the Psychology section.
    you're bound to find interesting things that might answer some of your questions, or at least give you some direction.
  8. dark_thought

    dark_thought Guest

    YES!! You are so right!
  9. Forgotten_Man

    Forgotten_Man Well-Known Member

    Ha ha don't believe you are alone. I have never had a girlfriend and most likely never will... cause I am scared of women, they are out to ruin me.

    You are right what point is there to living. I guess all you can do is find your purpose. I found my purpose, to be a step stool for all around me to use then trash. I am not saying that you are... but I found that once I accepted that i am nothing in the eyes of this world, but a tool to be used, I was moderatly happier and less suicidal.

    So here is what I did, I sat in my room and thought about everythign that happened in my life. And I tried to put meaning to it... it took me 4 years but I finally did it. You can do it as well.
  10. Darken

    Darken Well-Known Member

    Well ya see Ive tryed religion, well it was prety much pushed on me since I was raised christian. It actually made things worse for me. I studied the bible and it only made things worse for me. I became a naturalist at 17 or so. I started to read about religions and I find them repulsive , they only make the world worse and cause more violence and bigotry etc. None of them are true, and all the evidence in science points to there is no god. Im much better now than when I was religious.

    Some one said I was too focused on dieing and theyre prety much right.
    Death is a way for you to never have to feel pain again, never have to struggle again, never feel sad or lonely. You could leave this horrible world forever. Sounds great to me.
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