What the hell is going on? I feel so bad every day and no one cares. My own mom doesnt care if I die. She's told me several times. I feel really bad. If some one handed me a gun I wouldnt hesitate to shoot myself. If there is a after life im going to kill myself there too, dont care how it is. Im going to go and jump off the hospital. I dont have any fun, ever. Im desperate every day, Im always wanting something to make me happy. No one cares, or pays attention to me even when I tell them I want to die. what the fuk is going on. I have no one to talk to. No one is here for me, no one who loves me. No one on this forum can really help me either. I just gotta die. My post get deleted. It really is hopeless. This world will never get better. This existence is so horrible, gah! I wish I could destroy this whole fuking planet. Im benevolent, because I would end all pain for every living being. Humans cant stop killing each other and being cruel to each other, so I wish I could just kill them all and problem solved. I cant stand pain period, like animals killing and hurting other animals. Thats not fun or beautifull or happy. Isnt it weird how we can imagine so many better worlds than this?