I don’t really know what to say here, other than I feel as though I’m as close now to finishing as I’ve ever been. I just keep getting hit harder and harder with life, and because of my personality I can’t find a way around it. My “family and friends” see me as a funny strong guy with mental health issues, they pass me around from one person to the next, only so they can say they did their best. I’m outwardly confident, but I’m constantly in and out of psychiatric care. Because I work and earn good money they think that’s ok. My daughter has just turned 15 and is displaying similar personality traits as me, she is breaking down. We have grown apart since my spilt with her mum, and we now live in different cities. My heart is broken with this, and in so many other ways. The only thing I can think about is sleep, but I really don’t want to wake up, my daughter doesn’t need me, I’ve only been a bad influence on her - I can’t watch her go down the same route as I have, I don’t want to do this but I can’t help feeling that this would be the best solution for us all. I’m not having a pity party, please believe me I’ve been in this same state most of my life, and it’s now got to the point that I’ve got more reasons to go than to stay ? If anyone can tell me how to try with life when I can see no happiness, no enthusiasm ? I can’t eat I don’t like tv or music anymore... full disclosure- I have bi polar / bpd / ptsd - but they are diagnoses but not the definition of me...