I feel dead already

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by meme333, Aug 5, 2013.

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  1. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    I feel sad and as I have discussed with my therapist there has never been a time where I have not suffered from depression.
    I am all alone. I have no family and hardly any friends.
    I am afraid to get a new pet as I only have me to offer.
    I want a child and afraid for the same reason.

    I am alone. Nobody wants me and I don't know why I am still alive.

    I can't do this.

    I want someone to love me. But it will never happen.

    Honestly, should I just give up?

    I have no hope and I
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    No you should not give up We cannot see what our tomorrows will bring we are not future tellers You won't be so alone here hun you talk and post and people will hear you ok
    A pet is a good idea hun they bring so much into ones life
  3. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    Thanks but I don't have much faith that I will be happy. I am trying.
    You are the only one that responded to me. Thanks.

    I don't know anymore. It seems evident everywhere that I am not worth any effort.
  4. emily83

    emily83 Well-Known Member

    i'm sure you are worth something. you just have to find your place.

    is their anything you enjoy?. perhaps you can join a club based on that
  5. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    I'd like to join a club. I have several in mind but my shyness and social anxiety get in the way
  6. emily83

    emily83 Well-Known Member

    what kind of clubs would you like to join?

    perhaps you can start by finding some with very few people... 3, or 4, just to get an idea- you could always try to explain to the leader of the club and see if they can help in any way
  7. meaningless-vessel

    meaningless-vessel Well-Known Member

    It may not be easy, but I honestly think that stepping out of a comfort zone is the best way to counter the shyness/social anxiety feelings. How else are you ever going to truly counter them by staying in your "comfort zone"?

    As emily83 has said, try finding small-ish clubs that include and encourage you.

    Also, a word to the wise, not everyone knows what to say, so they say nothing. Not everyone accesses the forum every day. (There are regulars who do, a daily dose of SF, be it forum scanning, chatting in chatroom etc), but it's more about being slightly patient.
  8. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    I know that people aren't always around or don't know how to respond. I haven't been on here forever.
    It's just in that moment (even if irrational) I am looking for anyone to care and when I don't get anyone in real life or online it makes me feel I am nothing,
  9. meaningless-vessel

    meaningless-vessel Well-Known Member

    Oops - my apologies - I misread Aug 2011 for Aug 2013.
  10. sudut

    sudut Well-Known Member

    you mean your family members have passed away, or they just ignore you?
  11. X_X

    X_X Member

    Have you tried exercising? Can make you feel better.

    All while getting even more healthy. Depending on where you do it, you'll

    meet new people too perhaps. Even with shyness, you'll have the perfect topic

    to talk about as well. Supposing you keep it up, you'll also be fit to take on other

    duties. I wish you well.
  12. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    I don't have family at all I was removed for abuse and nobody chose to support me.
    I have been trying to exercise a bit.

    Depression really gets in the way and I am so afraid I will never be happy. I have tried and I am trying but I am scared.
    It hurts so much.
    I want to be cared for, to be thought of and to be touched without being hurt.
  13. dannyboy86

    dannyboy86 Active Member

    I dont know you, and i seriously do care. I am sorry for the lack of support. We can only offer suggestions to make your situation better. you have to put it into action. Getting a pet was mentioned. This is a good Idea. I bought a pet when my bout of mental problems hit. They help. Its good you have a therapist. talk to this person about how you feel.

    If your therapist doesnt help you can always talk to me. Im a good listener and always will do my best to help.

    Love danny
  14. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    Thanks Danny
    my therapist is good but away for a month ;(
    I want a pet but I worry.
  15. emily83

    emily83 Well-Known Member

    what is worrying you about getting a pet?

    what sort of pet would you have?

    and, we do care.... so that's kind of crossed off your list
  16. X_X

    X_X Member

    Why don't you start with a small pet? :)

    Like a hedgehog ^^. They're super cute and likeable.

    Then you can really apply yourself to take care of it :).

    They're really cute


  17. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    I need something like a dog so I can have company walking. I feel so alone no matter what I do
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