Because I am ugly and poor I feel like I have nothing to offer to a woman relationship-wise and this makes me feel like I don't belong in this society or anywhere on this planet for that matter. This makes me feel extremely lonely especially on Valentines day when I see couples kissing and going out together holding hands and here I am being an ugly, lonely and socially isolated loser. Sometimes I feel like I was born in this body in order to suffer for no reason. Maybe if I was never born at all it would have been for the better for me. Overall my life has been a painful nightmare for me, from extreme financial/health troubles to relationship problems and social isolation. Most of the time I just wish to fall asleep and never wake up anymore. Why can't God just let me sleep forever and never wake up?