Why do i feel so ashamed? I can speak about almost everything but i have a taboo, i feel ashamed about my childhood. I masturbated in public as a child. It began when i was 6 years of age. I would rub on objects. It lasted years. I could never talk about this with the people i trust. And i don´t want to hide anything but i can´t talk about masturbation. In family gatherings i avoid or change subject when someone starts to talk about childhood. I have a secret fear they will mention something embarrassing. Also i used to play with a cousin (when i was a child) and she also had some inappropriate behavior with a dog. I never talk about that but i remember. So my family or other people also remember what i did. I wanna be free of that.