I'm 26 and for few months I've been thinking about suicide. I have a loving boyfriend of three years. I imagined and made plans for our future together. He moved countries to be with me. But he told me in December that he wants to move back. Our relationship is interfaith and he's not sure he will be happy with me in say twenty years time and he wasn't sure if he wanted to live here. Our parents oppose us as well. But we've been continuing our relationship till now even though I know he is going because I can't bear to be apart from me. Two nights ago my brother and my parents asked why I am still dating him even though i won't be marrying this guy. And i talked to my boyfrirnd about breaking up. i feel like he is the love of my life and he is my best friend and i can't be without him. I haven't slept past two days, haven't eaten or gone to work. Ive cried so much i can barely open my eyes. i think I'm at a weak point in my life. I know I will never find anyone like him ever again and I feel weak and think there's no point in living. I live on top floor of my apartment. I just want to step out of the balcony. I don't even know why I'm writing this here. I'm feeling stupid and empty and scared and devastated and hopeless.