I have lots of friends, online and in real life. I go to college and all my friends there say they miss me and want me to come back. I have just got a part time job, working on Saturdays. I have a good family for the most part, apart from when my Dad kicked me out, but oh well. I think the only person who really couldn't give a shit is my ex-girlfriend. I feel bad about letting everyone down and feeling like I want to die when I shouldn't. There are so many people who have it worse than me and it makes me feel even worse about myself than I already do. I wish I didn't want to die, but it's all I think about, every single day. I don't want to physically kill myself, I just want to not exist. The only thing I'll regret about dying is that I won't be able to see some of the reactions of people. Will they really care, or is it all an act? Does my ex care about me after all? Who knows. I don't really know what this thread is for, to be honest. Has anyone else felt the same way as I do right now?