I got into some legal trouble because of weed, and now have a felony on my record. I have since quit smoking weed, it's been a little under a month. I will begin going to drug counseling, which is court ordered, and in my opinion a complete waste of time, because it's weed and i'm not a drug addict. The only reason I got a felony was because I had edibles on me, and they used the full weight of the edibles, rather then the content which was on the labels. If I could have been able to afford a better lawyer, I might have had a better chance, which is a typical story of the US legal system. But I am scared about my job prospects in the future. I want to go back to school, but don't really have the money to do it. I am just in a tough spot, and I don't know how things will get any better. I think about suicide from time to time, and for some reason it feels like a way out. But I am also very afraid of death, and don't think I could ever go through with it. I hate the fact that even if you pay your debt to society, people still continue to judge you and hold you back. I am so sick of judgmental people in this country, who usually have more to hide then I do, but because they have money, it's ok. I just wish I could hear stories of people who are in a similar situation as me, who were able to overcome it and become successful. Because if all I have is a life of turmoil to look forward to, I might as well end it before having to go through that shit.