On wednesday i wrote a letter to my care coordinator thanking her for her support etc, but nothing has changed since my suicide attempt 3 weeks ago,and that in the new year i am going away some where none will find me untill its too late.(unless a miracle happens).she sent me a email this morning saying she is confused,then she rang me to see if iam going to be "safe" over the weekend and to ring the crisis team if need be. How can it be confusing i thought my letter was pretty straight forward.Maybe i shouldn't have written to her but i felt the need to so i did. I have sat here in teatrs thinking my plan is not going to go ahead and for the upset i have caused. Why oh why do i feel like this. if it wasn't for xmas and my kids i would do it right now,but i am not that horrible,hence my plan for the new year. I am now thinking she will have me admitted to hospital against my will and i guess she has the right to do this, but what about my right?.