So, I have had a bad past here. In addition i was raised strictly against any form of sexual contact (before marriage) For many years after going through puberty, i noticed i had no drive. I was interested in a relationship, but scared of my partner wanting more. I eventually (and recently) was in an intimate relationship. I was never completely comfortable. I had constant dissociative episodes, and sometimes even panic attacks. I feel that it was too much for us, looking back. I really should have been more open about it. I cared about her, but i simply wasn't ready to handle that kind of stress. I won't attack her, but she ended up cutting contact directly after such events. I just lost all faith that i can deal with it. I really can't cope with how it seems to be advertised everywhere either. I really have no drive to be sexually active, and have a hard time even being exposed to it. I'm not sure where/who to turn to. My friends just assume i'm joking. My family isn't too close to me now. I really have no clue how to cope, or tell anyone. I'm in a relationship now, but it's still early on. How do you tell someone you're dating that you refuse to be involved like that?