I had anorexia 3 years ago, went into recovery but then it turned into binge eating disorder and now here I am having yet another affair but this time, with bulimia. I feel like whatever I do and however hard I try, my eating problems will never go away. It will always come back and bite me in the butt. :sad: I have been bulimic for a year and a half now and the most number of days I can go without b/p is just 3 days. Gggrr I hear people saying that they have managed over a month without behaviours, why can't that be me? Maybe because I am not putting 100% effort into recovery, but this is partially because I am afraid of what my life will be like if bulimia isn't there to "comfort" me and to protect me from the real world. I have even starting cutting my arm so I now have another problem to face. I just feel like staying alive involves too much effort and hard work. Anyone relate to this?