Like i'm here and no one sees me. Everyday is the same. I have no one to talk to. I can't connect. I'm just taking up space. I never really had a chance at anything. It doesn't matter what or how hard I try. I end up in the same place feeling the same way. Tonite I made a list of all the shit I've been on before that didn't help. prozac celexa zoloft seroquel zyprexa wellbutrin remeron serzone effexor trazadone paxil lexapro topamax ativan xanax cymbalta valium neurontin atarax. Various combinations and I'm not on anything now except vicodin for my back and now I'm fucking crippled too. I'm tired of this. I can't do it anymore. Every 5 minutes my brain tells me that I should die. I believe it.