i'm not even sure what to write or why im writing it. im all depressed right now cuz this world has become such a horrible place. i feel pathetic for being sad about this and it makes me cut. i cant cut with the razor blade i have cuz it feels like a paper cut and that feeling drives me crazy. so i use my mechanical pencil to cut. then i feel more pathetic for not being able to even cut the right way. then i feel worse cuz i feel like a faker and a worthless peice of sh*t. i dont know any more. i have great friends but i still feel so alone. i dont know what to do.