So me and my ex got into it again today over some stupid crap. She's so full of shit. She tells me I'm very good looking, smart, successful, funny, sweet, and that I have a bright future ahead of me, then she dumps me. She said that stuff both when we were together, and after she dumped me. So how could I believe that stuff if she broke up with me?
<mod edit-gentlelady-methods> I know it's not gonna kill me, but being awake for the rest of the day just might, so luckily now soon I'll be passed out, for around 15 hours I'd guess, based on previous experience.
It's the ultimate quandary - I don't want to live anymore, but I don't want to hurt my mother, whom I love so much and who's already a fragile person. I kind of fake it through the day, and right now she's the only reason why I'm not dead already.
I don't know what the point of this topic was, really. I'm so depressed and lonely right now, and crying my eyes out, waiting... waiting for relief or death, and I'm sure now that relief will only come with death. :sad:
<mod edit-gentlelady-methods> I know it's not gonna kill me, but being awake for the rest of the day just might, so luckily now soon I'll be passed out, for around 15 hours I'd guess, based on previous experience.
It's the ultimate quandary - I don't want to live anymore, but I don't want to hurt my mother, whom I love so much and who's already a fragile person. I kind of fake it through the day, and right now she's the only reason why I'm not dead already.
I don't know what the point of this topic was, really. I'm so depressed and lonely right now, and crying my eyes out, waiting... waiting for relief or death, and I'm sure now that relief will only come with death. :sad:
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