im having a breakdown right now, im anxious abt my study i dont know if i can keep going on like this, i fear my parents responses. endless thought and my chest feels hurt, i thinking about a lot of things, how do i keep going...how do i do after this, am i even worth. am i going to get expelled bcs my careless-ness. i have no one to talk to, ive never talk really personal and real private honest stuffs with others. they not gonna care, i think, theyre fine and alright, my parents, my sister, my friends. i feels i worth nothing to them. i thinking about the days of struggling, sruggling with a movement disorder in such young age, being bullied, being discriminate, feeling useless and hopeless, that painful and twisted feeling about being abnormal and such, about being turned down when im talking abt my disorder to my parents and sister, how did i even live with all of this sometimes i wonder. the pain just wont stop, how do to makes my brain alright.. its so hurt, i cant be like others, i cant talk walk and act like normal human beings i feels so disgusted with my disability, no one want to hear me out. its like i want to run away but no place for such people like me.