for the first time in years I am beginning to see the good in myself and have hope for the future. I will add more to this post later, at the moment I am a little drunk and dont think I can put my feelings into words very well. I just want to share that I am doing better and may be escaping the glare of self criticism. I feel like my eyes have opened for the first time. I will post again soon, buty goodbye for now:biggrin: the answer is within yourself! do not give up hope!