I was physically sick for about two weeks and emotionally I've Bren a wreck for months. Now I'm just beaten down by it all I can barely get through the day. I hate feeling like this even going to doctor's and finally getting into counseling I still haven't gotten better. I wish I could just goto sleep and never wake-up. I'm at the lowest point in my life and I have no hope I'll break out of this downward spiral until I finally just self-destruct. I just have no hope for anything the future or things ever getting better I'm just so damn unhappy and lonely.