I feel like a huge hypocrite because I keep telling everyone to not commit suicide and that they're going to be okay...but I feel like I won't be. I almost killed myself last night, but I got too scared. I instead just cut myself. I just started cutting the other day and now my arm is almost all used up (at least the part that's easier to hide). I don't want to use the other arm because I want to remember what a normal wrist looks like. I just need help. I don't want to commit suicide. It's hard to talk to my neurologist and therapist about it, and it's WAY too hard to talk to my mom about it. I just don't know what to do.