I dont have a clue who i am anymore.. i look in the mirror and i dont see me.. i hate what ive become i hate who i am im horrible i say nasty things to people who are just trying to help me. im paranoid all the time i constantly think my boyfriends cheating on me even when hes with me! i dont even feel like i have an inch of control over my emotions or my feelings. im so confused right now i hate how i feel.. even tho i dont even know how i honestly feel. i feel like screaming but i know.. no-one will even notice if i did my lifes just fading into nothing i feel like im disappearing from what i was i used to have loads of friends now ive pushed them all away i dont want to be me anymore i want to be someone else just for an hour? i want to think and feel good for once please?