..which is why I'll never let any of my loved ones know how I REALLY feel. My therapist knows how I feel, and I joked with her during my last session that she probably knows me better than my parents.. even my partner. That's awful. I primarily starve, cut (thighs only, as i find it's easiest to hide) and burn myself, though I am not sure if drinking comes under self-harm too. My reasons for drinking ARE to ruin my guts, so for me I guess it's self-destruction. I find it so hard to get up in the morning. It's like a major achievement when I get out of bed. I love sleeping and I like to be in my dreams. I sometimes wish I could go to hospital and just be kept there with drugs being pumped into me and my blood being taken. I guess I don't want to get better, I'm rather enjoying this state, this pain. Yeah.