January 2011...divorce after 32 years May 2011...son killed August 2011....left job I had for 28 years, seeking fresh start November 2011...daughter in law diagnosed with rare and terminal form of cancer April 2012...son killed July 2015.....daughter in law died 4 days after I married a wonderful man I thought it was time for me to live again I was wrong. March 2016....diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Stage 4 kidney failure means very few meds are safe. Pain is constant. Progressing. I'm tired. Physically. Emotionally.