We broke up 8 months ago, and I haven't seen him physically for a year. I feel like I'll never get over him. NEVER. I've been trying to find a new guy and they keep lasting for short, short periods of time because I always end up talking about BRYAN and how good of a boyfriend he was and not them. I understand why that would piss people off. He wants to stay in my life and help me out, but I keep trying to push him away and do my own separate thing since he has a girlfriend now. UGH. I'm never going to find someone, guy, girl, whoever, that loves me. I feel like a lost cause. I don't know why stupid shit like this makes me feel suicidal - I really don't. I wish I was okay with being single and alone.