I feel like my existence hurts people

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Omen, Dec 19, 2007.

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  1. Omen

    Omen New Member

    I have been emotionless almost throughout my whole life. So far, I am in college and have almost zero friends. There were many girls and nice people who actually want to befriend me. But I always end up hurting them for some reasons. Wherever I go, misery follows. What's the point to this life? I wanted to help others, all I am doing is making them as horrible as me. I am a walking mess and sucks in socialize. There was this girl in class that cared about me, but I have to make her sad, it's fuking pathetic. Just two years ago, I made a website just to make fun of someone who committed suicide, WTF is that, I guess I am starved for attention. I wish I could have the courage to say how sorry I am to all those who I have hurt, but even that I don't have. All I do after school is playing video games and getting online to troll and flame other users for fun. The only reason I am still living is because of my family and I am already disappointing them. It's like just by existing, people are suffering. I might just be crazy

    Sh!t I don't even mind myself struggling. It's seeing other people who care about me suffered because of me that hurts me so much. Sometimes I feel like just not thinking at all, my life is disgusting. I swear I would be dead sometimes next year
     
  2. Wierd

    Wierd Well-Known Member

    you could embrace your feelings and learn to manipulate people for attention, like I am. if they are so different from you then why worry about them? instead do what you feel like, but try to make it hidden or they will try to get revenge
     
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