Lately I been feeling very down, I just feel kind of hopeless cause I don't see a light in my life, I got great parents, a decent house hold, but it's me, I FEEL just lonely, I created terrible habits that stop me from achieving, I hate myself for that...I had opportunities, I have had good things going for me but I always screw it up....my parents have got to the point where they given up on me, I really screwed up myself...I can't past my GED test, I got none to hang out or talk with, I just feel...like...I'm not the son my parents deserve... They are such great parents, did everything they can for me, I just feel like a disappointment, iv failed on every aspect....I always made my mom cry, or always disappointed them, I just really messed myself up....I don't do nothing, I ain't got a diploma, a job, or anything...I just feel like I'm drifting by and I'm sick of it, no matter how hard I try I'm a slacker in every aspect, I got to say this, their is no reason for me to be alive, at all, I live with so much regret, and pain, I just can't rid it. I feel if I were to die, I can FINALLY be at rest, all my regrets and utter failures, finally, I would be at peace, and i won't have to cry myself to sleep anymore....