i feel like sleep is for "weak" people
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ive always put an emphasis on sleep, moreso since i began studying lucid dreaming. i find that suicide itself would be less a reprieve than a constant state of lucid dreaming.
if there were a way to safely stay in a state of r.e.m. sleep, id be the first in line. i cant think of a more perfect way to both exist and escape. i often wonder if, once ive experienced an extended state of lucid dreaming, id ever want to return to reality. scary prospect.
i managed to get a misserable hour of sleep today, which brings my 4 day total to 1. im fighting the urge to load up on antihistamines, as i dont think itd be very beneficial for me to sleep a few days off right now.
but really, who needs sleep when youve got chemical imbalances!?
if there were a way to safely stay in a state of r.e.m. sleep, id be the first in line. i cant think of a more perfect way to both exist and escape. i often wonder if, once ive experienced an extended state of lucid dreaming, id ever want to return to reality. scary prospect.
i managed to get a misserable hour of sleep today, which brings my 4 day total to 1. im fighting the urge to load up on antihistamines, as i dont think itd be very beneficial for me to sleep a few days off right now.
but really, who needs sleep when youve got chemical imbalances!?
When I didn't have insomnia I used to struggle to stay awake with Janie, but now I love catching my Z's 
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Though to be fair, I also really dig getting up at 4:30 am and writing for a couple hours. 4:00-5:30 are my happy hours. Plus it means later in the day I get to take a nap. And napping is the only thing better than sleeping at night.
.Though to be fair, I also really dig getting up at 4:30 am and writing for a couple hours. 4:00-5:30 are my happy hours. Plus it means later in the day I get to take a nap. And napping is the only thing better than sleeping at night.
I´v sleept way to much lately but im about to go back to more normal sleeping patterns, if I can manage that is.
This last week was scary. I sleept whole days away. something like this. I would go to sleep at around 09:00 in the morning and then sleep to around 19:00, 20:00 and then the same thing next day. Right now im having a hard time feeling sleepy when I should. But at least I´m making an effort and try to sleep earlier and set my clock so I can get up. Today it was; bed 03:00 and I got up at around 12:00. I diddent sleep much in quality in that time but it was better then last week. :blink: I´m not on any drugs or anything but I eat very little and that might play in? I dont know. Anyway, I´m going to recover from this darn down period in my life. I so want to be over it.
This last week was scary. I sleept whole days away. something like this. I would go to sleep at around 09:00 in the morning and then sleep to around 19:00, 20:00 and then the same thing next day. Right now im having a hard time feeling sleepy when I should. But at least I´m making an effort and try to sleep earlier and set my clock so I can get up. Today it was; bed 03:00 and I got up at around 12:00. I diddent sleep much in quality in that time but it was better then last week. :blink: I´m not on any drugs or anything but I eat very little and that might play in? I dont know. Anyway, I´m going to recover from this darn down period in my life. I so want to be over it.
I can't say I have a regular sleeping pattern or routine. Before puberty I would need to sleep a couple hours more than the rest of my family. By my mid-teens I would only require 4 oir 5 hours of sleep each day but that was when I could still fall asleep and not wake up until I was done. These days I can only sleep when I can, if that makes any sense. Sometimes I am so tired it's painful all over but I just can't sleep. Sometimes I sleep for a day or two, only waking up to go to the bathroom or get a drink of water or juice or something, and then go back to sleep. I think depression has something to do with that sometimes, but not every time. Sleep is necessary and every aspect of my life including my job, my wife's job, and my relationship with my wife has been negatively affected by my sleeping patterns. I have no answers here and I thought I had a helpful point to make when I decided to post in this thread but I realize that now I don't. Sorry.
I understand what you're saying exactly. I usually stay awake all night reading a book or roleplaying because I get extremely angry at myself for falling asleep. When I used to have sleepovers with friends, I used to get ridiculously angry at them for getting sleepy, and it worsened over time to the point of hurting myself for it. I'm trying to get over it, but it's hard not to get angry or disgusted about it.
used to say sleep was overrated
still think it is
maybe it is for the weak, eh?
i used to get angry at not being able to sleep
constantly thought something was way wrong with me
then i learned to just deal with it
for a good while the only way i could sleep was with some one else
now i can't STAND it, not even being in the same room
just hearing my roommate across the wall drives me nuts
back to being up all night and day i guess
still think it is
maybe it is for the weak, eh?
i used to get angry at not being able to sleep
constantly thought something was way wrong with me
then i learned to just deal with it
for a good while the only way i could sleep was with some one else
now i can't STAND it, not even being in the same room
just hearing my roommate across the wall drives me nuts
back to being up all night and day i guess
I don't think sleeping is useless, but sometimes I feel like my day has gone by too fast and that sleeping stops me from doing this. I feel like when I sleep i'm missing out on something, even though i'm not sure on what. There's not much to do at night where I live.
Right now I just wanna continue doing things and I get lonely (and jealous of those who can sleep early) when everyone is asleep and because I can't have people stay awake doing things or going out with as often as I would want to....lonely
Right now I just wanna continue doing things and I get lonely (and jealous of those who can sleep early) when everyone is asleep and because I can't have people stay awake doing things or going out with as often as I would want to....lonely
Although my sleep patterns are erratic and sometimes I go a couple of days without sleeping, on the third day I sleep for several hours. I've read studies (I can't quote them here) that insist that sleep is necessary for the brain to rejuvinate and I don't think it's for "weak" people. Many of us may see sleep as a waste of time, but I'm sure it is necessary to function in at least a somewhat productive manner.
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