One side of me just wants peace and harmony with his environment. The other, usually emerging when I feel stressed/frustrated/weak, is completely unempathetic, amoral, destructive, and takes pride in being an evil prick. The best way to describe it would be episodic psychopathy. I don't know who i'll be tomorrow. I don't know what goals and values i'll hold tomorrow. I feel like a battleground between two polar opposites. I'm scared of myself a lot. I fear interacting with people at times because I know somebody could say the most unmalicious thing and set off that darker side of me I don't know how to control. I feel that my situation is unique and I hesitate to talk to anyone about it.