Those thoughts are creeping back in again, this is why I'm back on this Forum again. For awhile I thought everything was fine and that I was actually getting happy but now I'm having those darken thoughts that I'm worthless again and that the world would be better off without me. I've been feeling really lonely lately too. Before I had a lot of people to talk too but now not many people talk to me at all, it makes me feel lonely and how pointless my life is. I haven't really done anything with my life, cause I'm afraid that I won't succeed in college. Math is my weakest subject and I'm afraid once I'll go I'll fail cause I won't be able to concentrate on anything. Right now I'm disabled and have no job, the government gives me money cause I lost my last job from me constantly calling out cause I was way too depressed to go in. Now that I'm on it, I feel like a total loser cause I can't even hold down a job. Feel like I'm going nowhere with my life cause I'm always constantly relying on people to help me get through the day. Just yesterday I was inside the chat room and I felt ignored so I started crying and felt I'd be better off dead cause I feel like such a burden on everyone. I'm trying to get better here but it's really difficult to see straight or to do anything with myself. Please someone talk to me or help me through this, I'm desperate right now.