that is it. i very rarely come here but i feel more connected and at home with people who are depressed and sad, and downright suicidally miserable than anyone else. i have been in depression for so long that, now that i realise im very slowly comming out of it, that i dont want to. im too used to being miserable and deathly that i dont know what to do, or how else to be. am i wrong for this? is anyone else like this? i cant control it. maybe this is a psychological process, a reflection of the hardships i have done, and im at a emotional standstill and dont really know where to go.. im sorry.. i have a hard time converting thoughts into words and sentances... i cannot stop wanting to feel like i did a half a year or more ago. it happened so suddenly.